“I’m sure he didn’t mean it that way. Maybe he was just joking!”
“No, he wasn’t making a joke. I could tell. Besides, words have meanings. Words matter. He should’ve choosen them wisely”, I said, pausing for breath, and continued.
“I know you’re fond of him, but wanting to believe the best about people doesn’t make it true.” A grimace flashed across his face and gave away what he was thinking.Wanting to believe the worst doesn’t make that true either. But he didn’t say it.
This is who he is. He believes in people. He’s not hiply cynical; he’s not comfortable making snide remarks about others. He’d rather believe that people are innately good, and he’s ok being disappointed once in a while. It’s why I love him.
But for now, he needs to say something.
“Say something, baba!” I’m pretty sure I sounded annoyed.
“You think I’m irritating, don’t you?”
“Yes, but that’s not the point. You’re too fucking trusting and people take advantage of who you are.”
“Okay, I won’t do it again!”
“We both know you will.”
“All the more reason this debate is pointless, right?
So we stopped there. I’ve used up all the time I had budgeted today for banging my head against a wall.